This last week (it seems like a month though) has been comprised of a family of “sicklings”. From congestion, migraines, swollen tonsils, ear infections, my poor Peach and her little acid reflux returns (or just never went away) and the most heart breaking little hoarse coughs in the night. I am finding more dark circles under my eyes each day. This week has also consisted of me staying up into the night getting even an inch further in my homework, trying to bring my fingers to type the words I want so badly to describe in a blog post. But the words seem to never come right now how I want them to.
But right now everyone is sleeping and I am typing in the silence of the house. I love it. The dog laying by my feet wanting some snuggles, and for a moment of mom time I get to gather a few thoughts I have had on Motherhood-ing.
Every day this month I have been looking forward to the end of each day when I can lay on the bed for one minute to just relax. Even that minute would be enough to recharge (in most cases). I cannot even begin to describe the feeling of wanting to get so much accomplished, do everything I can for the kids to make a happy day, and also at the same time just want to do nothing at all.
This month has been squished together with so many things in such a short 30 days. It has consisted of meltdowns, tummy aches, pinching and tantrums, tears, fevers, coughs, cocoa and toast for dinner, long drives in the day just to get a nap in for one of the kids, more fevers, runny noses, hoarse coughs, acid reflux morning and night, raising my voice more than once a day only to feel guilty right after, exhausting bedtime routines that seem to take longer on the long days of parenting, defusing oils throughout the house, packing everything up for yet another move (24 hour drive), and wrapping the little stocking stuffers the kids will get to open for the drive.
Motherhood is messy, has long days, and even longer nights with the kids who get sick. It makes you want to scream and cry at the same time. But somehow at the end of the day, I love walking into their rooms and seeing who by chance fell out of their bed once again and pick them up to only be put back in to bed. How can it be all these crazy things bundled up into our everyday?
I can’t explain it. I have been challenged each day this year, learned patience and lost my patience, and yet still want to squish those little cheeks when they are sleeping.
Date nights have turned into, changing diapers, potty training, removing the marker streaks on walls, and trying for one second to get a word in to Daddy before the kids are pulling his leg to play “dragon,ponies, and chasing the monster around” before bedtime.
On the brighter side to this jam-packed month of motherhood trials, the kids seem to be feeling slightly better today compared to the last month, and we are seeing little blessings emerging from the ashes of our crazy year of ups and downs.
So as the weekend comes quicker than I wanted, we are feeling a little thankful for happier days, happier kids and hoping for a more patient mom.
So when looking back on our entire year of 2016 I know the trials and adventures, the colds and tummy aches, the moments I sneak into their rooms at night, and the little moments where like now all is quiet in the house, it will be like this always. There will alway be someone getting sick, and there might be a year of trials that never seem to end. But one day things fall into place. The picture above was right before we had little Peach and she brought so much joy and continues to be a huge blessing in our life as we find out where we are going, and what we will be doing. She has been that much needed light to make us forget about all the little things that drove us crazy this year to the point we didn’t know what to do next. We have learned so much though.
It is December so that also means in this post comes a new list of December goals for myself and for our family.
-Pack the house
-Go to the zoo one more time
-Finish wrapping kids stocking stuffers
-slow down more
-have fun before moving
-take kids on an adventure with dad
-hide presents for daddy for christmas
-make another pie
-try something new with the kids
-read something each morning about christmas for the kids
What are somethings you want to do before the year ends? How are you going to turn next year into a better year? Share your thoughts!
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